9.15.25 // Thinking Your Life or Living Your Life

Are you thinking your life, or are you living it?
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As a chronic over-thinker, I had to stop and think about this one (oh, the irony).
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For a long time, I lived somewhere in the middle. I’d catch glimpses of living, often when I was traveling, but then I’d slip back into the thinking—over comparing, over analyzing, over stressing about optimizing every moment… and freezing when it came time for action.
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When I was in a new environment, it was easier to simply live. I felt alive, present, noticing little differences, paying attention in a way that expanded me. But at home, back in the routine, I’d lose the plot. I’d start scrolling, comparing, telling myself who I needed to be. My body felt heavy while my head spun in circles. I found myself more in my brain than in my body.
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The irony is that I was happiest not when I thought my way into the right life, but when I gave myself permission to breathe and live. To experience and feel for myself, without logic and pragmatism echoing endlessly. To be curious about the world instead of micromanaging myself. To actually live, not just think about living.
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So I’ll ask you the same question I’ve been asking myself: are you living… or just thinking about it?