3.1.21 // this is me.

This is me.
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I’m incapable of loving lightly.
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I love with every fiber of my being. And when I’m lucky enough to pour my love into you as a friend or as more, I’ll give as much of me as I can without crossing my own personal boundaries.
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So that’s why when I found out Taylor couldn’t travel from Italy directly to the US, I knew I had to figure out a solution to make things work so my hands could be wrapped around his face again.
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Let me explain a bit more...
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We had built our life plan around the latest travel regulations. Hours of research and calls to border agents led us to believe Seattle would be a perfect home base for us while he pursued a dream job at the United Nations in Rome, Italy. So we left Canada, found a beautiful apartment in Seattle and Airbnb in Rome.
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However, in a matter of weeks, travel regulations and work expectations shifted.
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The true turning point was when Taylor called me from the Rome airport telling me he wasn’t allowed on his flight after being COVID-tested and preparing what we thought was all the right paperwork. I was crushed. Because he held a Canadian passport he now couldn’t come back to the US directly from the EU.
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When I got that phone call, I cried deeper than I had in months. Partly because I wasn’t going to see him but I was also mourning the death of our plans.
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If there is one thing we’ve learned this year, it’s to roll with the changes, but I fell into the illusion of a plan, and the comfort of control. It took me hours before I was able to let go of the old plan so I could start thinking of a new solution.
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With Taylor needing to spend 14 days outside of the EU before entering the US, the solution was straightforward. I’d meet him for two weeks in a 3rd place, and we’d reevaluate all our plans.
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So for the last two weeks, we were in the place we first fell in love, Mexico.
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We spent hours discussing, researching, and listening to the universe while in a country I hold so very dear in my heart. It was a very vulnerable, raw, and real two weeks.
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And last night we landed back in Seattle, fresh plans in mind ready to greet our new path forward with as much love as my mind and body will allow.