11.7.20 // this is me

This is me.
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This is me looking happy but feeling so completely confused.
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Confused as I watch a country, that I’ve taken pride in, loved, and called home for my 29 years of life, teetering on the precipice of a world I’m scared to know.
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Confused as I watched millions in that country vote for someone who is outwardly racist, sexist, and a cheat.
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And the strangest part is I feel like “confused” doesn’t even begin to capture my complete loss of words, the numbness in my mind, or the pain of my broken heart.
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How. I just want to know, how.
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How can individuals vote against humanity, human rights, equality, and democracy??
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How can humans be so full of hate and a need to control?? To control someone else’s body, somebody else’s basic human rights.
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I really thought that over the summer deep conversations were happening. That we were turning a page. But, that was my white-privilege still blocking the reality.
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The reality of what turned up to the polls. The humans still looking to continue a system of oppression.
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But in the depths of the shattered pieces of my broken heart, a flame still smolders. One that burns for the new world of freedoms.
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Not the freedoms written about by our forefathers, but the ones that reflect society as it is today.
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And with that change of freedoms, we have a long way to go.
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But, keep the flames in your heart alive.
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I’m so proud to call @joebiden my new president, but stay awake my friends. We may lose the senate which means that any work and progress will take that much more time and effort.